I smile when he comes online..
I smile when he says "hey"..
I smile when he wants to know if i'm ok..
I smile the whole time i'm talking to him..
I get upset when he has to go..
But I smile again when he says "love you"..
I smile so much when he randomly texts me..
I smile so much when he randomly rings me..
I love the way he can always make me smile..
I love the way he can always cheer me up when i'm down..
I love the way he can tell when something's wrong..
Even when i'm trying my hardest not to show it..
I love the way he can make me laugh so hard..
I hate the way he makes me use my credit because I just want to call him and hear his voice..
I love the way I can't help thinking about him every day..
I love the way he cares about me..
I love the way he says such sweet things to me..
I get upset when he hangs up..
I get upset when he doesn't text back..
But I love the way he goes on msn just to say to me "sorry babe, no credit, love you"..
I love how he says i'm perfect in every way..
I love the way he makes me feel inside..
To be honest, I love everything about him..
I think I love him..
There's just one problem..


He's not the one i'm supposed to feel this strongly about..
He's not supposed to be the one I think about so often..
It's like i'm telling lies..
But i'm not..
I haven't lied..
I couldn't lie to him..
It makes me so confused..
Just the fact that..
I wrote what I felt in my heart..
My true feelings about him..
But I didn't write about the one I claim to truly love..
I wrote about someone else..
Who I claim is just a friend..
But I think I want him to be more than just a friend..
But loving two people is wrong..
And I feel so stupid..
And selfish..
And i'm gonna end up hurting someone..
But what to do about it I don't know..
I don't want to lose him..
But I want him..?